I have wanted to be a mom since my earliest memory. Playing with Barbies, my favorite ones to play with were the moms and their babies. Every animal I have ever had I wanted it to have babies – Guppies, Puppies, Hamsters, Calves, and everything in between.
In 8th Grade I had a robot baby that I had to take around everywhere to teach me the woes of sex and unwanted pregnancy. I got 99% for my grade, the only reason it wasn’t 100% was because the teacher said no one can get 100% as a parent.
I named that robot baby Hope – actually I have named every baby I can remember “Hope”. It feels ironic now that I think about it.
A quote I heard that has stuck around is:
“Hope can be a terrible thing.”
This feels so true when it comes to the journey of infertility. Every month, no matter the results of the previous month, you start to hope. Honestly, you can’t really help it. It just sort of happens. And every month, like clockwork, your period comes.
My period still has not come yet, I reached out to New Life IVF, this was her response:
“… your bleed should arrive in the next couple of days! Please do not worry! Please keep me posted on any changes!”
The Amazing Jenny from New Life IVF Greece
I am sure this happens more often than not, with the time change, change in routine, stress of flying, change in diet – a delayed period makes more sense than one that comes right on time.
Still, it is hard not to hope. Just a lil bit.